Feeling Down

I really need to vent and I haven't vented to anyone about this. Last night my FH said some hurtful things to me due to him being under stress. A little backstory: our wedding date is May 9th and we live in NJ. Our state is locked down til May 7th. Originally our venue was going to give us our $ back, but now we are going back and forth with them because they don't want to & would rather us reschedule, but we dont want to. Already decided to get married with 10 people or less in attendance once NJ isnt on lockdown. We even contacted an attorney and it's very stressful for us. Last night he was very upset (I'm more calm out of the 2 of us) and said he regrets proposing to me, getting engaged and even meeting me. Said if none of that happened then we wouldn't be going through this now. I approached him about it this morning saying how my feelings are very hurt and he apologized, but said he meant what he said in the moment last night because of how bad he was feeling and that I shouldn't dwell on it. My response was that's the first time anyone has ever told me they regret meeting me etc. I feel like crap & have no idea what to do.