Feeling alone while planning your wedding.

I got engaged in October of 2019 and have still not planned anything for my wedding. I have felt so incredibly alone while trying to plan my wedding. I don’t have girl friends and my mom passed away when I was 18 years old, and I have all brothers so I don’t exactly have a female on either side of mine or my fiancé’s family that I feel like is really here for me and supporting me through this process. Being engaged is supposed to be a really exciting time and I want to enjoy the experience so badly, I just need help. Planning a wedding without my mom just isn’t fun, it hurts. I feel alone, overwhelmed, defeated...etc.