Postponed 2020 Wedding, Sick Dad

I am writing this post to see if anyone is in a similar situation as me. Our wedding was supposed to be in December of this year but we decided to postpone it for December of next year and have a small ceremony this year instead because of COVID. To make this even more fun my dad also got diagnosed with brain cancer 7 months ago. It’s the kind of cancer where median survival is usually about a year. We got engaged August of last year and never could I imagine being in this situation while planning my wedding. I was already worried about my dad making it to my wedding in December and he is doing so well that I am confident he will yet now we have to postpone the wedding I have dreamed of for another year. I know other 2020 brides are feeling bummed too, but with my dad being sick it just feels like my wedding has been ripped away from me. When it comes to postponing it didn’t make sense to just postpone the wedding a few months because I don’t see this pandemic ending for awhile. So I essentially have to prepare myself that there is a potential my dad won’t make it to my big wedding and it’s absolutely heart breaking. I know our mini-ceremony this year can still be beautiful and wonderful, but I can’t help but feel depressed that I am having to make these decisions. It all feels so unfair. Any other brides out there having to postpone their weddings and have sick family members?