April bride turned November bride; worried about canceling again

Hello!
I know there are so many more just like me and that’s why I’m starting this discussion. I had planned a wedding for April that was postponed to November just 21 days before the original date! The very next day after canceling my now husband and I got married. While it was far from what we pictured, our courthouse ceremony helped us refocus on what truly matters in a wedding - committing to your best friend forever. For about a month following our postponement I felt very positive about the situation despite my initial disappointment. However as November is creeping closer it is becoming apparent that even if we are able to have our wedding, the day won’t look the way we pictured it all this time.

I guess I’m writing to see who else is in this situation. I feel like I’m mourning the original wedding I planned as dramatic as that sounds. My best friend recently got engaged and I’m finding that I feel so sad hearing about her wedding plans just knowing that mine were destroyed!!
Wishing you all the best!!