I'm sure many of you have been on an emotional roller coaster like I have. Back in mid March when we went into quarantine I completely broke down. Then I went into denial and suppressed anything related to our September wedding. I stopped planning, I stopped talking about our wedding, I stopped thinking about our wedding. Then I went through a stage of acceptance and being at peace with "having the wedding that is meant for us". I'm a pretty positive person and I've maintained the right perspective throughout all of this. The most important thing to my fiance and I is that we have each other and our loved ones are healthy. I also realize that there are so many other people around the world struggling in bigger ways than not being able to have the wedding they planned.
BUT I've also realized that my feelings are still valid and I have to allow myself to feel and to grieve. I'm not an angry person but I'm currently in the anger stage. I'm angry that everyone around me is constantly trying to put things into perspective, when all I need is someone to say "I'm so sorry" or "it's unfair". It makes me frustrated when someone close to me is negative about what the next few months will hold, not even realizing that I'm supposed to be planning the most exciting day of my life. Is a wedding everything? No. Of course the most important thing is that I'm marrying the love of my life. But is it fair that we will never get to experience an enormous milestone in our lives normally? Most definitely not.
I know these feelings will pass and more importantly, this situation won't last forever. Just looking to connect with anyone who has gone through similar stages..