Beginner February 2020

My first love

Amanda, on January 24, 2020 at 4:56 PM Posted in Family and Relationships 0 8
Hi my fellow brides!

I don't post on here much.. my wedding is in like 2 weeks I cannot believe it. It has been a ROLLERCOASTER of life planning this filled with anxiety, money problems, family fights, loss, thr whole shabang. Its almost felt like my wedding has been cursed. But im keeping a positive outlook thatmaybe all these storms are going to make for a beautiful perfect day. Anyways...6 months ago my chili (my dog but I'lll continue to refer to her as princess or chili) got diagnosed with cancer in her throat. She underwent surgery but they couldn't get it all.. here we are 6 months later and I can see the mass returning in the back of her mouth. She's still acting peppy and like herself.. but i know what's happening and what's coming. I feel it. And im really struggling with my wedding QBs this happening at three exact same time. She has an appointment at thr dr immediately after the wedding.. and I hope she will be doing ok until then for selfish reasons...
1.i can't afford to do anything at the moment with thr wedding 2 week's out2. I cannot fathom losing her right before my big day There's already so many special people missing from my day because they've passed. Im so heartbroken and nothing's even happened yet. I guess I just needed to vent. Idk what to do with myself. I got her as soon as I turned 18... I'lll be 30 soon. She has been my only constant in my adult life... like ive never been a grown up without chili by my side. I'lll be home the day after the wedding but I wish I could come home that night. I hate leaving her. Idk what kind of responses im looking for..I just needed to cry and type. I should start journaling again instead probably. Lol .. anyway.. thanks for reading my story if u made it this far xoxo-a sad mommy


Latest activity by Meghan, on February 16, 2020 at 11:27 AM
  • D
    Dedicated June 2021
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    Prayers for your Chili to make it happy and free as long as possible, and no matter the outcome you WILL make it through. 馃挏馃挏馃挏
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  • Angel
    Expert August 2020
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    I'm so sorry about your baby Chili Smiley sad I know how tough it can be to have your dog be diagnosed with cancer, my fianc茅 lost his beloved chocolate lab almost 2 years ago. I'll be praying for her health and a miracle. Cherish every moment you have with her. I hope your wedding is everything you want it to be!

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  • Jennifer
    Super October 2020
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    I am so sorry that all of this is happening and so close to your wedding day. Dogs are so precious to us. They are our babies! Cherish this time with Chili as much as you can. I know nothing we say can make going through this easier. I am so glad to hear that she is still her peppy self right now. My thoughts are with you and Chili Smiley heart

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  • Elisa
    Dedicated May 2021
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    Praying Chili makes it through, and even beyond the wedding date. Dogs are the best, they really are the largest of source of unconditional love. I'm so sorry you have to go through this pain so close to your special day. It's a good sign she's still acting positive and jolly. Sending you so much love and healing.

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  • G
    Dedicated August 2021
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    Praying for Chili, I am so sorry you are going through this and hope she's okay. My thoughts are with you guys Smiley heart

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  • Molly
    VIP September 2020
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    I'm so sorry! I would have her at your wedding and include her as much as possible and take TONS of photos with her.

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  • Kari
    Master May 2020
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    I LOVE our dog (as evident by my profile pic) and we are hoping to include him in our wedding day. Losing Winston right before our wedding would be unbearable to me. I'd probably cry through my entire wedding. I'm so sorry you are going through this!

    Cancer in dogs is tough. My mom's yellow lab Maggie had a HUGE mass on her back (larger than a softball) that my mom had removed 2x and both times they felt they got the whole thing and it kept coming back. Eventually my mom put her down because she was just so fatigued. Maggie had a great appetite (she was a lab after all) and would still get up to go outside for the bathroom and VERY SLOW walks but she was having so much difficulty getting around and the mass was bleeding everywhere and so big she was walking lopsided. She was 15 when my mom put her down and my mom rescued her from a puppy mill breeder situation (via a rescue) when she was 7, so I like telling my mom that Maggie got to spend most of her years in a loving home and my mom did a great job giving Maggie the best life, but my mom still misses her terribly.

    If your Chili still has energy and a good diet I would hang in there. Your wedding is only 2 weeks away, so as long as she seems happy and doesn't appear to be suffering, I would keep going on as normal. Dogs are THE BEST and Chili loves you and wants nothing more than to be there to help support you when you are stressed, anxious, excited, etc. You are her mom. You are her person. You are doing the absolute best you can for her, and that's what matters. Unless she shows a sudden, drastic decline, I think waiting until after the wedding to bring her to the vet is okay. You sound like a very attentive dog parent so I'm sure you will notice if something happens that is more dire and plans have to change before then. I promise you no matter what happens Chili loves you and you are an awesome dog mom for caring so deeply about her.

    Also, you should definitely check with your vet but most vets offices I have some options if you end up with an expensive bill you can't pay right away. Some vet's offices will just break up payments if you have been a loyal customer and always paid bills in full on time. Many also have information about low-interest loans for vet care. I think both these options are worth considering if you are concerned that Chili needs to see a vet sooner but are worried about money because of the wedding.

    I do think as long as she is eating and her energy is up and everything else seems normal, delaying a vet visit by a couple weeks isn't likely to cause harm or result in a huge difference in the outcome, so I would try as much as possible not to allow yourself to feel guilty or added stress because of that. Hang in there!

    Lots of love to you and Chili!

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  • Meghan
    Master October 2019
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    I am SO sorry to hear this! As a crazy dog mom myself, my heart breaks for you. I really hope your sweet baby Chili can pull through this. At least through your wedding day. It would be really special if you could find a way to take some photos with her on your wedding day. We had our dogs brought to the venue for a few photos because they are the most important things in my life! Having those photos with Chili and your fianc茅 could be really special. Good luck and I wish you the best wedding day!

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