I can’t believe I am even typing this but I could really use everyone’s advice and words of encouragement to get through this. I am 3 1/2 months out from my wedding and my father just passed. He was only 60 years old...his heart just stopped and he was without oxygen to his brain for about 5 min before someone found him and did CPR. We spent 5 days in the hospital with him, 3 in ICU and 2 in hospice and every second of it was brutal. It has been then hardest weeks of my life and I miss him so much.
I don’t want to sound selfish but I can’t even picture this day with out my dad. We were to have a first look, a first dance, he was walking me down the isle, and he was just as excited as I was, so involved and proud. I picked the venue I did because I pictured him there walking me across this bridge to the ocean...I just can’t even believe this has happened.
I don’t mean to bring up hard memories to those of you who lost a parent you were close with, but where do I go from here? How do I find comfort?Was your day still special? Will I even smile and dance? or cry all day long? I’m just at lost.