Ok allow me to explain (it's a doozy, I'm sorry in advance but thank you for any advice given!!) -
I'm getting married next January (2022), and my best friend from college (& one of my bridesmaids) is getting married this October (2021). She lives in NYC & I live in CA, and we only see each other about once every 2 years or so.
Originally after she got engaged (in Oct. 2020), I asked if she had begun any wedding planning yet. She told me that her and her fiance are going to have a very low-key, intimate, family-only ceremony. Basically implying that I, or any outside friends, would not be in attendance (which I'm completely fine with & even reiterated how nice a small ceremony sounded).
Fast forward a month later at my own Bach party, this friend out of the blue asks me if I will be one of her bridesmaids (???) & also that they are now inviting over 600 people to their wedding. Feeling very confused, put on the spot, & tbh drunk (we were in the middle of a bar), I immediately said yes without hesitation and told her how excited I was.
Then another 2 months passes and I don't hear anything from her, when suddenly one day I get a text with all the details of her bachelorette party, which I find out is happening in NYC 10 days before her wedding. Like I mentioned before I live in CA, so having to travel to NYC 2x in under 2 weeks is too much both financially & work wise. I tell her that while I would love to celebrate her in the same way she celebrated me at my bach party, it would be impossible for me to make 2 big trips like that so close together. She was very understanding and told me that she didn't expect me to be able to attend both. (this was a month ago).
Fast forward to now. We are exactly 1 month from her wedding date, and I have not received a Save the Date, formal invitation, or even so much as an e-invitation letting me know any details about her wedding that I am supposedly a bridesmaid in.
So this morning I send her a text message asking what the details of her wedding are (what airport to fly into, where to stay, am I supposed to get a specific dress, etc.) & she replies with a very vague itinerary of their wedding weekend (no mention of ever sending out a formal invitation, which I find very bizarre, since I know for a fact that this is a formal Catholic wedding). I can only assume that if 600 people were invited, they had to have sent out invitations?? Being in her wedding party, how did I not get one?? She never mentions anything of the sort.
She then proceeds to tell me that they did a room block at a hotel, and that the last day to book using their discounted rate was a few days ago (meaning I missed it, because once again, we had no information about the wedding). At this point I'm past weirded out and flat out just annoyed and kind of pissed off. I ask why she didn't let me know about booking a hotel room sooner and her response was "sorry! I guess I planned a little too big of a wedding and it's just gotten crazy". ........What?!?!
We just looked at flights to NYC for that weekend, and the cheapest one's we can find are $800 each, round trip. When all said and done, her wedding weekend will cost us around $3k. Which, honestly, we can't really afford right now since we're already strapped for cash paying for our own wedding.
As of now I'm super torn- on one hand, she is one of my best friends and has agreed to be in my own wedding in January. However, I feel like my invitation to her wedding was a drunken slip up that she felt like she needed to follow through with after the fact. I do not feel like she genuinely wants me there or even cares if I'm able to make it....and truth be told I don't want to blow thousands of dollars attending a wedding where I'm the one having to squeeze information out of the bride. If she truly wanted me there, wouldn't she have made more of an effort to communicate with me? Her wedding is 4 weeks away and I'M the one having to ask HER what is going on.
I get being overwhelmed while planning a wedding, I'm in the thick of it too, but I have certainly made sure to assist all my bridesmaids in booking their accommodations and at the very least making sure they received save the dates & invites. I feel like an afterthought to her, but I also know that not attending her wedding will most likely be the end of our friendship, and in turn she probably won't attend mine.
I'm in a real pickle and I don't know what to do. If you made it this far, then thank you for taking the time!