This might be long, but I need some support and could benefit from some stories of other people in similar situations.
My dad is not in my life. My mom has always been my dad, but she's also a narcissist. Very selfish, not excited for me to get married, not excited to help plan, not excited to help BP plan the shower, etc. I knew this going into the wedding planning, and I knew that I wouldn't get much help or support from her. Well, once the ring was on my finger she seemed to have gotten excited. We went to look at venues, and she was supportive. She was interested in giving her input and helping to design some things. Then, things just started going downhill over the last 6 months.
Here have been the big issues: She offered to pay $2k toward our venue when we first started looking (didn't cut the check then). We were hesitant, but grateful. Then she went dress shopping with me. Paid for the entire dress. THEN our caterer went out of business, and she found us a new one (and offered to pay). It was too good to be true. So about 3 months ago she backed out from the caterer. We found a new one, and wiggled it into our budget. She said she could still contribute the $2k to the venue. Today I reached out to her because the payment is due soon since our wedding is three weeks away. She said she couldn't help us, which I truly expected, so I just said "no worries, we'll figure it out" and she BLEW UP.
Before I get to what she said, I just want to point out that over the last 4 months she has been so anti-wedding, and very selfish. FH's family (who they don't really like me because I'm not a Christian, we moved in before marriage, etc., etc.) has contributed a lot of emotional and financial support. FMIL is hosting a bridal brunch. My BMs threw us a shower (FH's family contributed ideas, my mom was hard to get ahold of, complained throughout the entire process, etc.). Mom has just been so absent, stating that she's not going to the brunch "because she doesn't have to" and has made it very clear that she doesn't approve of us having a big wedding. She didn't even get us a simple card for the shower. Nothing. I know that I shouldn't expect gifts, but not even getting a "congrats" or a card from your own mother on your wedding shower, that's tough.
So today when she "blew up" she told me that I've been a monster throughout all of this wedding planning, that I should have asked her for support from the beginning but I insisted on taking on everything on my own, that I'm just throwing a big "look at me" event and expecting my peasants to follow, and to just "leave her the f out of fing everything". So, I'm broken. I know we shouldn't have relied on her financially or emotionally, but I never made a bad comment to her, I just accepted her inability to help and moved forward, because we expected it. So now here we are 3 weeks before the wedding, we're supposed to relocate after the wedding to be closer to my family, and I'm just broken. She's supposed to be a main supporter (AND SHES WALKING ME DOWN THE AISLE) and to hear her say that I'm being a monster, and fussy and ridiculous, is really too much and I'm feeling very lost. I'm a very humble person, I don't reach out for help as much as I should, I try not to burden others with my problems, and we're getting married in a small garden and having our reception on a patio (not extravagant at all). I never confront things with her because I know that she's fragile and defensive, so even though I was extremely annoyed that she backed out of another obligation, I said nothing but "we'll figure it out". She took that as an attack from me and an opportunity to make me feel guilty and belittled. I understand that she's probably feeling guilty and embarrassed, but I just don't know.
Anyway, I expressed to her that she doesn't get to make personal attacks on me when I didn't say anything negative to her, but having this person who is supposed to be your #1 supporter make such specific harsh attacks and genuinely believe that I'm a monster, is absolutely heartbreaking. She didn't have a constructive response. So now here we are in this awkward position not only for the wedding, but also for after the wedding. Is it worth completely relocating to be closer to somebody who thinks you're a monster? She's the type that will ignore me until the last possible minute and expect me to say sorry so things aren't tense at the wedding.
Is anyone else out there experiencing something similar? Or is there big unexpected drama right before your wedding? How do you deal? What can I do?