Cancelled the whole day- a major pity party

My fiance is an Active Duty Marine and cannot go within 50 miles of his home during the newer DOD lockdown. The CDC continues to lower the number of people who can be within close contact as well. We have an intimate wedding planned but at this point...even 19 people is probably too much. While it pains me to cancel a day that I have poured my blood, sweat and REAL tears into, we cancelled out of fear our venue would go under during this health nightmare. We also feel incredibly forced into this decision based on the regulations being handed down by the hour. Furthermore, This could last months so finances for ourselves and businesses are a worry. My family is distraught and they want us to get married at home but I am not too interested at this point. My new but super upsetting plan is to have my dad become an officiant, and it just be my parents and I. At this point i am almost afraid to put effort into this again, and plan an entire new wedding. How do you just throw your original vision out the window and try again somewhere else. I'd rather just not have a wedding all together than put half the effort into something else just because I feel obligated. We also see the issue of children. We want kids so bad but are worried that pushing out the wedding will only significantly reduce our chances of getting pregnant, after all he is set to deploy in November which doesnt leave us much time to try. Of course we could get pregnant now and still have a wedding but again, I didnt really want to go through dress shopping again or be pregnant on my wedding day to the point where it shows. Maybe this is a poor way to look at things but it is ridiculously hard to wrap my brain around how hard this is making every detail of our lives. It isn't just a wedding, it is having family alive to see it, the ability to start having kids, and more. It kills me to see how many lives are being disrupted because of this because I know it isn't just me who is being affected in one way or another. How is everyone else combatting this? Are you canceling? Postponing? Drinking a case of wine and crying (me)?