Before i start just know i have no real attachment to my last name. I never wanted to get married until I meet my fh. I always said if i went crazy and got married, I would take his last name. Well my fh brought it up that when i tell people about changing my last name, i say it like if i hate the idea. In a way i feel like i do. Maybe its my stubbornness. I tell him i've had this last name for 37 years and now i'm going to change it. Like I understanding I wanted to change it, but just thinking of the process is making me not want to do it. I have to renew my driver license in a few weeks and will have to get a new one next year with my new last name. I also work at a school. All the kids will call me by new last name when the school year starts. The good thing is he is being understanding about it. But man, I don't know why i have to act like im donating a kidney or something lol.
I do blame him in a way. Actually our first arguments was on a woman keeping her last name (we were only dating 2 weeks at the time). He believes a woman has to change her last name. I told him today that if he would've gave me and option, I would've been glad to take his last name. But that argument 2 years ago, is making me feel forced which i don't like to do. He has always apologized and said if i don't change it, he will respect my decision. But i do tell him why did he have to say that lol.
Just wanted to know i wasn't the only one going crazy over this lol.