18 days to go and having panic attacks

I'd make a dr appointment and discuss with a professional. They can give you a very low dose of something to take the edge off. It really helped me when i was having anxiety about flying.

Oh No! I think part of the reason I enjoy running so much is it seriously helps clear my mind. Perhaps try to get out (if your weather isn't like ours in the NE over the next two days) and breathe. I had one panic attack in my life and it was awful I feel so bad for anyone who has them. I hope the next couple of weeks get better for you and you can enjoy the rest of the process.

Like @OG Kathryn suggested if it continues see a professional, that's why they are there.

Also, use Lavender essential oil applicators. They roll on. Lavender is supposed to help calm and ease anxiety. I use it ALL. THE. TIME. And it does help. It may be just a placebo effect, but it works for me!

What I do when my chest starts feeling tight and everything bears down is literally lay down in bed for a few minutes and curl into a blanket burrito. Use the heaviest blanket you can find- they actually have weighted anxiety blankets, but they're kind of expensive and I dunno if they'd get to you on time

Close your eyes, breathe. Use the Calm app- it's meditation and they walk you through how to do it, and there's a bunch of relaxing sounds or songs you can choose from for the background noise. (My preference is Thunderstorm!)

Then you can come back to whatever you need to deal with with a level head and a calm mind.

You're almost there!!! I know you can do it!

Try the app Calm. It has relaxation and breathing prompts to help you take 5 minutes (or more, if you choose) from your day and focus on yourself. I think doing that as often a day as you need it will help you a lot!

When I start feeling overwhelmed - I find that writing everything down that I have to do, or have coming up really helps. If its all in my head, it seems like SO much and that there isnt any time. But when I write it down, and make a schedule of when to do things, it really helps me realize that I can do it.

I agree with the grounding technique. I have anxiety and it is one of my coping mechanisms. I find making lists also helps me with my anxiety as the wedding gets closer. I know what to expect and I know what is left. It also makes me feel good to check something off the list.

I'm so sorry this is happening to you.

I started having I guess panic or anxiety attacks last year when I hit the one year mark. It's like a switch just went off once we got under that mark, and I was waking up feeling shaky, tired, my stomach hurt, and I felt like I couldn't breath. I started using a lavender diffuser when I slept and then used that smell in the mornings when I started to not feel good. I listened to music too to distract myself. It did go away after a few weeks, but it was awful and I dreaded going to bed knowing I would wake up not feeling good again. I haven't hit that point again, but I do feel for you.

It may be hard to see a doctor before your date, but maybe try some of the things PPs mentioned as well?

I get it; I'm a while away still but I have had those panic attack moments a few times - everything will be ok then all of a sudden I think about some stupid detail and it's like "why are we even getting married if we didn't block out guest rooms?! Everyone is going to hate me forever...." lol.

Starting to understand the sitcom trop where the bride turns into a crazy mess for seemingly no reason at all.

Anyway, if it helps, I super envy you for being so close, I feel like so much could go wrong in the next few months and I just want to not think about it and be married! And you'll be there, SO SO soon. Remember why you're doing all of this, and that the little things aren't going to matter in a few weeks...even if something goes majorly wrong, everyone will still love you (especially FH) and want to be there to celebrate with you, and you're obviously going to look fabulous no matter what.

In the end it's just a party...a very expensive party, sure. But it's not life-or-death, and you'll be married at the end of it one way or another (but the overwhelming probability is that everything will fall into place, it'll be the best day ever, and you'll forget all of this in 18 days).

Planning a wedding takes a lot out of you! Please be kind to yourself.

Peak anxiety hit me about 8 days before. Honestly, I have trouble remembering what I did during that time, lol. I do know that about four days before the wedding I actually started feeling better. It helped that my family all flew in around then (we're on the west coast, fam is on east coast). Like the others say, try to take some time to do small activities you enjoy, and think about your future together with your fiance. And there is no shame in getting professional and/or medical help if needed. Enjoy your wedding- it will be amazing.