Wedding 22 days away- Freaking Out

I’m 22 days away and may have just broken my toe by kicking a trash can because I’m an idiot. I’m an over-planner who has been trying to be laid back and casual about the whole thing, with Covid and everything else going on in the world I am really freaking out about this wedding. I have limited it to 50 people and it’s outside, and I feel like I have so much left to do, but what really matters? Will anyone even care? Favors, desserts, decorations, finding a hair person..trying not to kill a family member by spreading this virus, .the right shoes, this that and everything else. I’ve been off my meds for a few days, pretty stupid, and was so frustrated and upset that I hurt myself pretty badly and now I’m sitting at urgent care waiting for an x-ray and probably a big shoe for my broken toe. I guess I don’t need to worry about finding the right shoes anymore.


I know that this is just one day and a party, we have been together 3 years and living together for almost 2. I’m not sure why I’m freaking out so much, just very much lost in all these details and just cannot wait for it to be done and over with to be honest, so I can get back to my normal life.
Thanks for reading this, I just needed to vent I think, I’m so over this wedding planning and covid stuff.