I knew this day was coming amid the Covid-19 pandemic, but I didn't think I would be as angry as I am. I thought I would be happier to be eligible for Unemployment and have the opportunity to be home, safe. We weren't given a definite date of return and I am just so annoyed at my company for putting us through this(I work for a multi-million dollar Orthopaedic/Sports Medicine company with greedy, selfish executives.) My FH is a realtor and unfortunately, with our state's shut down laws, there's not a lot he's able to do from home. He has a few virtual settlements & tours coming up but it's not going to be nearly what he usually makes monthly. Also, let's be real- who the heck is buying a home without seeing it in person. I can't blame anyone, it's just putting a hurting on us bad.
Although we are still 8 months out from our wedding, it's sinking in that I have no idea how we are going to afford the remaining payments for our vendors. We still owe a lot of money 
We promised each other we weren't going to take out loans or max out credit cards but I can't think of any other way around it. At this point getting deposits back is not an option because we would loose more than we owe. I know our situation could be much, much worse. I feel for any brides in a similar situation and any brides that have to reschedule their entire wedding. I'm so blessed to have my FH, my family & friends, my health and the Wedding Wire Community!
