Feel free to ignore this post, I just needed a place to rant since I feel like I can't do it anywhere else. This year was supposed to be the best year of my life.... and everything got ruined. Within the past couple months I have been struck with a couple large blows. My grandma passed away, COVID happened, my wedding photographer without warning quit, and one of my bridesmaids had to "drop out" because of her high risk nature. And all I can think of is why me? Why does this always seem to happen? I try my hardest to put good in the world to get it in return and it seems like I don't ever get the "good" back.
I understand that there is a lot more bad things happening to other people but I feel so down. I have had to change what my wedding is going to be like multiple times, and something I have been dreaming about since I was a little girl has just been dropped and drug through the mud.
Anyone else feeling this way? I just feel so alone in all this.
