Post content has been hidden

To unblock this content, please click here

Dedicated April 2021

My nerves are all over the place

Latressa, on July 17, 2019 at 2:41 AM Posted in Community Conversations 0 9

Saved

Flag
Hide content

As we all know i haven't been posting because i have been going through so much from delay in wedding plans to surgery and then a second surgery the month after the first one. I have so much bottled up inside me i don't even know where to begin. After knowing my FH was still on deployment and haven't got back i have been through so much i feel alone everyday and this deployment is making me sick to my stomach but i know it will end i pray everyday because that all i know how to do. They weren't lying when they said military life is hard i have bern through the worst and i have found out never make plans because your plans will not come out the way you think it should. Most of all i miss him so bad i really do sometimes it feels like my heart is breaking apart but i know that it is a pot of gold at the end of this rainbow. So i stop looking for wedding stuff i dont even have a wedding date no more because everything is up in the air right now i have change the wedding colors thats all i have done i tell him everyday i love him because i dont want to put stress on him so i hide my tears and be happy this year alone has taught me to be a strong woman for him and our son i really take my hat off to the others women and men that have love ones in the military to. Because i know now that this is a very very hard job. I try to keep our conversation on a positive note all the time because he don't allow me to think negative at all i am stronger than i ever been in my whole life.

Flag
Hide content

9 Comments

Latest activity by Erinn, on July 17, 2019 at 4:13 PM

Legend June 2019
Melle · on July 17, 2019 at 4:09 AM
Flag

Hide content
it's ok for you to vent and let those emotions out. Otherwise it would be so overwhelming to bottle it all in. Take a break for yourself whenever you need! Have faith that things will come together.
- Reply
WeddingWire Administrator January 2030
Clíodhna · on July 17, 2019 at 7:26 AM
Flag

Hide content
I’m so sorry to hear you’re struggling, Latressa.
Sending you a massive e-hug
You can always come and speak to the community when you’re feeling down and worried. We’re all here for you
As Melle said, have faith that everything will come together and you will be reunited soon.
- Reply
Expert August 2020
Arielle · on July 17, 2019 at 8:01 AM
Flag

Hide content
I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I hope it gets better soon! In the mean time keep praying and give yourself a break. This can't be easy, but your family will be even stronger for it.
- Reply
Devoted October 2020
ARIEL · on July 17, 2019 at 11:45 AM
Flag

Hide content
Hi Latrissa!
I am in the military so opposite end of the spectrum but I still understand. I'm away A LOT for long periods of time and I know its hard on my fiance. I would say to keep planning, talk about wedding planning when you guys are chatting together. I know things were easier when we talked with normalcy. Everything is crazy when I'm away but talking to him about his day and what he has planned or things we want to do when I get back def. helps. I hope you start to feel better. Just remember that it is almost over and you have have months together when he gets back! its the best!
- Reply
Dedicated April 2021
Latressa · on July 17, 2019 at 11:50 AM
Flag

Hide content
View Quoted Comment
Arielle
Its hard but i know it will be ok sometimes i feel so alone and i dont know what to do but some days i am happy and smiling and feel real good then days like this come i feel down depressed overwhelmed. I hate these days because i don't know what to do at times. But thanks for listening.
- Reply
Expert October 2019
Tamika · on July 17, 2019 at 3:58 PM
Flag

Hide content
*****JUST PRAY*****
- Reply
Dedicated April 2021
Latressa · on July 17, 2019 at 4:02 PM
Flag

Hide content
View Quoted Comment
Thank you and i will
- Reply
Master August 2019
Allie · on July 17, 2019 at 4:06 PM
Flag

Hide content
Hugs! I'm sorry you are going through such a tough time. I will pray that it gets better.
- Reply

Dedicated January 2020
Erinn · on July 17, 2019 at 4:13 PM
Flag

Hide content
Keep pushing ! My FH is in the process of becoming a PO and though it is not military, it was very stressful for me in the beginning because he would be studying or busy and I wouldn't see him and tried to be strong and bottle everything up to not stress him, but I found that it stressed me out even more doing that. One day I decided to tell him everything I felt and told him that even though I understood that he was trying to do his best with his stuff I needed his help with very little things like giving me his advice, and telling me whether he liked something or not. Since that day its been different, I don't feel as stressed because we took care of all the big decisions together such as venues and vendors. Sometimes its best to let him know how you are feeling, so that you don't bottle it all up and it becomes a bigger issue later.
Don't stop planning keep planning, even if its just finding out prices for vendors that way when you do choose a wedding date you already know pricing for some vendors and you can choose who you like.
- Reply