Just venting.

So I dont even know where to start..... So I know I'm breaking every code that there is on here... But I'm canceling my wedding amd doing a small elopement....im not doing a reception or a dinner....im canceling my wedding party.... Cutting the guest to twenty people....(immediate family and a few uncles and aunts... And changing the wedding date.... I havent sent out save the dates.... I haven't sent out invitations... My bridesmaid are part of the reason I'm canceling it but they havent purchased anything so they arent missing out.... Part of me is so devasted.... But I dont know what else to do... My mother in law has been so awful.... She spent 30 minutes two days ago trying to talk my fh out of marrying me... With his sisters who are suppose to be my bridesmaids.... I'm jist so confused and hurt.... And so sad that I have to change our plans to make sure his mom doeant cause a scene.