I was supposed to be getting married this Saturday, March 28th. Everything was ready. Months and months of planning and saving and excitement. We were 11 days away from our big day when we were notified that we would have to postpone because of COVID 19. It all happened so quickly. Our honeymoon cruise was cancelled first. We immediately started scrambling to book another trip, quickly booking a vacation to Hawaii. The day after that, I was notified by my command (I'm in the Navy Reserves), that I was no longer allowed to board a plane or travel more that 500 miles. It was just hours after that, as I was trying to plan a possible honeymoon roadtrip, that the whole wedding came crashing down. Now we have to wait 6 more months to say "I do". I'm really trying to keep things in perspective. There is so much sadness, loss, fear, and pain in the world right now. Should I really be this upset about one day? After all, we were very lucky to find a date that all of our vendors were available for. However, no matter how much I try to stay positive and look at the brightside, inside I am heartbroken. Friends, family, and co workers do their best to be helpful, often suggesting that we go ahead and elope and have the ceremony later. I smile and thank them for the suggestions. But inside I'm crossed armed, stomping my foot, pouting, and screaming "I don't wanna!" Much like a petulant child.
Don't get me wrong, I love my fiance with all of my heart, and would marry him any way I could. This wedding turned out to be a dream I never knew I had. I never thought I would be able to afford such a beautiful big day. But my father surprised us with his generosity and made it possible for us to have the day we couldn't even dream of. I just want that.... And I'm just sad, no matter how hard I try to be positive. Am I being selfish and ungrateful for my blessings? I apologize for the long emotional rant. I'm just wondering if anyone here is going through a similar situation. Can anyone relate to how I'm feeling?