Feeling Depressed Over Make-up After Bridals/first Look

I had my bridal photos and a "first look" video shoot with my fiance last night and I'm feeling very drepressed about how I looked. I hated my make-up.

A little backstory... I've been doing my own makeup for 11 years. Everyone always tells me that I do such a beautiful job (and not to toot my own horn, but I agree). For whatever reason, I decided that I wanted to look flawless for the wedding so I hired a "professional" makeup artist to do airbrush makeup for my engagement photos, bridals/first look, and wedding day. (The artist I picked out was off of Instagram. She has thousands of followers and photos of her work always look so pretty. Everyone says such good things about her, I didn't think anything bad would come out of it).

We did our engagement photos back in April with her, and once I got the pics back, I wasn't thrilled with how the makeup looked. I spoke to my MOH, and we compared photos of makeup I've done from previous photoshoots, and she told me that I do a better job at applying makeup and that I should just do it myself for my wedding. I agreed.

Then, for whatever reason (probably the "convenience" of not having to do it myself on such a stressful, busy day), I decided to give the same makeup artist another chance and let her do my makeup again for my bridal/first look photos which were last night. I thought it would be okay since I would tell her what I didn't like and hoped she would do things differently this time. Huge mistake. She took offense to any suggestion I had and I hated how I looked even more than the first time she did it.

I was supposed to be AT the venue for photos by 5:45pm, and at 5:40pm she had just barely finished (she ran over the scheduled time) and I was sitting in the makeup chair with tears in my eyes. I knew I had no time to redo the makeup myself or have her change anything.

I showed up to the venue late, and I was upset. Everyone told me how beautiful I looked, but in my head, I couldn't get over how I looked. My brows were way too dark for my icy blonde hair. The airbrush foundation was very patchy. She used cool toned foundation when she should have used warm. She didn't place the false lashes where I asked her to, she went overboard with highlighter, etc.

When I got home, I looked in the mirror and started crying about how I looked. I spent $600 on photography and videography, $200 for my hair colour/cut/style, $150 for the rental of the venue. All that money spent, and I hate how I looked.

As I said before, this was also a "first look" for my fiance to see me in my dress for the first time. His reaction was all caught on film. It's not like I can just "re-do" these photos and videos, because we will NEVER get that moment or reaction back.

It's still a couple of weeks before I get my pictures back, but I already know that I'm going to be upset with how I look in them. One of my bridesmaids (who went to the photoshoot with us), sent me a pic on her phone that she took, and I HATE how the makeup looks already. What do I do? (For one thing, I am for sure going to do my own makeup for the wedding in three weeks!!!).