Just looking for some advice. I recently lost my father to covid, but before that my father was battling cancer. I was very close to my dad and talked to him often about my wedding plans. Originally, my husband and i were planning on having a wedding with 120 guests for our original date in April. In January of this year, we made the decision to get married on our original date (April 23, 2021) with my husband's and my parents, siblings, and God parents and to push our bigger wedding to November because I was concerned about my dad catching covid. My dad always encouraged me to get married and have a celebration later because he knew this was what I originally wanted. At the middle of February he caught COVID and was in the hospital for the next month up until he passed away. The night before he was put on the ventilator he called me to tell me that I had his blessing and to just get married. On March 19th, a little more than a month from my wedding he passed away. My husband and I decided to honor his final wishes and just get married with our parents, siblings, grandparents and best man and maid of honor in attendance. We intended to have the bigger wedding in November, but lately I haven't been feeling up to it and have been depressed over my father's passing. I was thrown a surprise bridal shower a few days after his funeral and now feel obligated to have the event in November even though I haven't felt up to it. Just looking for some insight/advice. Thank you.