Family Drama

I’m sorry in advance. This is mostly a rant post just to get it off my chest.

My family doesn’t like me. I’m sure they “love” me like a family is supposed to, but they don’t like me as a person. I’m in no way perfect, but I don’t do anything that would cause them to dislike me (I don’t think!). I am very independent, hard working, and for the most part keep to myself.

I’m having a hard time.

1. My sister: we are only 2 years apart age wise, and we got along well for the most part. She has always been very dramatic and intense. She bullied my brothers and when we would fight she would bully me, but I’m older so I didn’t care as much. Now as an adult, I feel like we do not get along at all. Every time I see her she is throwing shade and just being rude to me. I then made a twitter account to see what the hype was about, followed her, and realized her entire feed was talking crap about me (& getting drunk - but that is besides the point). I’m obviously hurt that she has to tweet about how much she hates me and everything I do. I was going to let her be one of my bridesmaids, to not cause drama, but she doesn’t deserve that title. She just bullies everyone including my mom so she gets whatever she wants. Well I might be vindictive, because I am not inviting he to be in my wedding party anymore.

2. My brother: I have three brothers but this is about the oldest out of them who is going to be 18 in October. We were the best of pals for his entire life until I moved out 5 years ago. We pretend we are still finds but honestly he is too cool for me. I know, he’s a teenager, it’s a phase. But we just don’t click anymore. I wanted him to walk me down the aisle, but I don’t think that’s a good plan anymore since he has been “ghosting” me for about 2 months, while I attempt to hang out with him.

3. My mom: she had me when she was 17 years old. I’m her oldest child, and it’s a well known fact I ruined her life. To counter this I’ve always tried really hard to show that I’m not a burden even though I was a mistake. I haven’t asked her for anything since I was 16 years old, I don’t drink or do drugs (not judging, just not my personality), and made sure I was a successful, well adjusted adult by 18 years old. She was always really hard on me, super strict and judgemental about everything I did, and now my siblings are living easy getting new cars at 16 years old and overall doing whatever they want (like getting drunk every night, even though they are underage). She’s called me stupid when I did live at home, and was never happy with anything. I’m now marrying my boyfriend of 5 years and she is so rude about everything. Rolling her eyes and changing the subject anytime I bring something up about the wedding. It’s really discouraging. So she is not involved with any wedding planning.

I know I probably sound childish and selfish, but I’m so frustrated and upset that no one can support me. No one will even talk to me. Luckily my FH’s family loves me and very helpful, but it’s not the same.. I love my family and I wish they could just pretend for a minute that they acknowledge me and my feelings.

gain sorry for the rant. Just tired of crying about it and wanted to let it out.