I'm one week away from marrying the love of my life. His second marriage and my first. I did have an event planner friend who was going to coordinate for us, but for some unknown reason, she backed out 1 1/2 months ago--with me having done it all up to then, but hoping for help on the day of. Nothing happened so I don't know why, but I have too many irons in the fire to let it slow me down too much... so plan B. Luckily, I have a great family/friends and several are stepping up to "co-ordinate" specific area/jobs. I see in my head what I want, I have everything written down for the folks helping to pull it off. I am having a smallish wedding--current count 84 guests at a lake clubhouse with the garden/tea reception following in the same room. I have created the centerpieces, designed and built the arch, organized everything by myself, will be prepping the food next week and I'm still full speed ahead to get my overlays and chair covers de-wrinkled. (hit on the ice cube trick in the dryer that seems to work ok with the chair covers). I've created some monogrammed art pieces, etc. and can't wait to see it all come together. Myself, FH, some family and friends are setting up and decorating the day before, but I am having the most difficult time letting go for my wedding day. It's not that I doubt them or their abilities, but I won't be there until my entrance. I'm also a stickler for being on time and starting AT 2:00 PM (ok, I can give a few minutes on either side). lol I'm including my siblings in my day-- techie brother - music, sister- cake cutter/gift wrangler, oldest brother- chauffer and escort to venue. Nieces and future "almost" daughter helping to manage the food service. My sister in law is the "time keeper" to get FH up the aisle and the doors opened for my entrance. If that goes off and the special music hits, I'll be good... I think. lol Then my fear of it not working out like my vision hits!!! I know that things are never exactly as we picture them, but I still have hope! I'm not doing all the normal things (bouquet, bouquet toss, garter, cake cutting, etc.) but I'm doing things MY way. My 89 year old father is walking me down the aisle. I'm the only daughter he's ever given away ( I'm 60 and my younger sister eloped) and it's his first time too. He's a character, so I've had to threaten to hide his fart machine remote (yes, seriously). 
My mother passed several years ago and I've told him to say whatever he wants to when asked "who gives this woman", as that is HIS moment. He is planning something "memorable", he says..... you have no idea. lol I told him to go for it. Everyone that knows us would expect nothing less from him, so if he wants to lighten the mood, I'm good with it..... I think I need a tension breaker!!!!! ok.... vent/spill/babble over.... I hope!
PS-- all this is going on while my FH went blind 3 months ago (getting a little bit of vision back but has surgery week after honeymoon), Achilles tendon tear and other health issues, remodeling his house and adding a master suite addition, a contractor who is over 2 months behind and done sub par work (fired), trying to everything for FH due to his limitations, pack my stuff/house/purge, plan wedding and work fulltime. I think I'm sleeping the first 3 days of the honeymoon!!!!
