First, I want to start off with times are difficult. Everyone is making hard choices. To postpone, to elope instead, to micro wedding, to go ahead as planned and hope for the best, or to cancel. A lot of these decisions were made due to financial issues. Everyone's decision is their own. This is not at all a judgement.
With that said....I am one salty panda.
Ive been with my fiance almost five years. We got engaged February 2019. Honestly, I wanted to elope. BUT we decide to have a fairly small wedding instead with around 75 people at an outdoor venue set for Halloween 2020. Everything was planned and deposits were made by the time Covid happened in March. By July, it became apparent that we were not going to be able to have the wedding we wanted so we started to brain storm about the wedding we would be happy with. Even going so far as to start to plan for a very small wedding of about 35 people. Meaning only immediate family and closest friends. However, all of those people lived out of state so travel would be involved. We took a quick poll of the people we would really want to have and they confirmed that they were just unwilling to travel. Which is understandable. Many care for elderly parent or small children. My fiances best man and brother has a heart condition and is very high risk. Some even work in the medical field and were worried about being a spreader. Ultimately, we decided to postpone. All our vendosr were more than willing to work with us.
We felt good about this decision. We even had a little Halloween photo shoot and small champagne afternoon tea (we were going to go to the UK for our honeymoon) to celebrate our un-wedding day.
We live in Georgia. Were no one wants to mask or take basic precautions. I should know, I work in grocery. I had so many questions about why on earth we would postpone. Like it is crazy that we wouldn't just have a 75 person wedding at a time like this. On top of that I have seen three people have weddings in my city since what would have been our wedding date. People I know personally. Two of them have not been engaged as long as we have been. They are roller derby friends so not super close. When planning a virtual Christmas party for roller derby and one of these women reached out to suggest we do an actual party at a local restaurant that is a sponsor "to let them know we are still a thing 
". So casual. Like 270,000 people have not lost their lives because of this.
I'm so deeply hurt and saddened. AND SLIGHTLY BITTER about it.
I
still feel good about our decision. Its just so hard to watch all of
these people go ahead with their plans and look at me like I'm crazy for
trying to be responsible.
I'm not even excitied anymore. I
have a totally planned wedding that I'm not even wanting to think about.
Not that it matters because its NEXT October anyway.
Pictures from our Halloween photo shoot. Because why not.
