Well, I am at the point where I am thinking of dropping out of a wedding party where I am maid of honor. The bride's my baby cousin, much more like a sister than anything since her parents, my aunt and uncle, raised me. I've raised my concerns on this forum before about the ordeal I am facing.
Basically, she is continuing on with planning a very large wedding in June 2021. It will be in New Jersey, indoor reception, outdoor cocktail hour. It is at a venue where they are not taking restrictions seriously at all judging by the venue's website and social media pages. I have expressed to her how uncomfortable I will be planning a 60+ bridal shower and bachelorette party in April and May. The virus will not be under control by then nor will the majority of people be vaccinated. I have tried compromising (offering to throw a drive by shower, virtual shower, cutting the guest list along with trying to host a bachelorette in-state instead of out of state like she wants). These are things she is unwilling to budge on. Honestly, I am not Covid paranoid but I am immunocompromised and a good number of people attending her pre-wedding festivities are older or out-of-state. I am NOT hosting events where I could potentially put others at risk. I also probably will not feel comfortable or safe attending a wedding of this size come June. I will not be offered the vaccine for a long while.
She is refusing to budge at this point. She is not willing to postpone her wedding and all the events leading up to it. She is fully capable via her venue to postpone. She is unwilling to think of a Plan B. I understand it's her big day and it's super important, but morally speaking, I am not willing to back this plan up nor am I comfortable taking part in it. I feel she is being unreasonable and extremely selfish. As much as I love her, I need to do what I feel is right as well.
So, now I am at the point where I have tried and tried to compromise and tried to explain where I am coming from with absolutely no understanding whatsoever. I feel I am left in a situation where common sense tells me to get out now so she can promote a new MOH who is willing to do what the bride wants. If I were to drop out, I'd like to give her enough time to figure out who will take my place instead of doing it a month from the wedding date. This obviously will cause a ton of friction being she is family. It will also cause drama within our family since her parents are basically my adopted parents as well.
Future Brides, how do I handle this? How do I go about having the conversation that I am not OK with pushing through with all of this in the midst of a pandemic? How do I tell her I am backing out without it becoming an ordeal and a half?