I'm feeling so over this. I've got two months to go, I've got pretty much everything taken care of at this point with a few random to-do's left on my list. I'm at a point where I can start to relax a little, but I'm feeling my excitement wane. It all just feels so silly, me at 30 in this big white dress, and this huge party. I just want to be married to my FH. That's all. And I can't wait for the honeymoon.
I think a big part of it is being just exhausted by my FH's family recently. There is a lot more drama in his family than I am used to, coming from my very stable and close-knit family. This weekend was very rough, and I'm still feeling completely drained by it all. I'm tired of babysitting his mom when she gets drunk, and I'm tired of her telling me constantly what I have to do - when I have to have kids, how many, what they have to be named (after my FH or after HER of course), that I HAVE to change my last name, how I have to be a good religious girl. I'm just tired.