Activity for Michelle

I know this is supposed to be a HAPPY thing but I'm struggling with planning any & everything when we can just go to the courthouse. Courthouse was our original plan & now he's wanting a wedding. I plan and act happy but I'm really not I don't want...

So I have opted out of my SO buying an engagement ring & to do customized wedding bands instead. We even talked about maybe later buying an engagement ring & I'll go with him to pick it out. Is this weird? Anytime i tell people I'm engaged they look...