Well. It's officially postponed.

After two months of back and forth, fighting, arguing, crying, no intimacy, broken hearts, and death we finally postponed to next year like many of you. This has put us through hell and we can no longer take the stres, our relationship is not doing well. We should be excited and giddy and instead we are fighting over whether we put our guests lives at risk for a party. The two nails on the coffin was the fact that we can't have a funeral for his grandpa who passed two weeks ago and that his best man will not come if we have it this year. We realized we just need to push it for our own sanity and to get back on track with our love for each other. As you all know this has been one of the worst years of our lives. And I wish it wasn't such a difficult decision, and I wish I had made it sooner and saved myself the heartache.