I understand that there is a lot of Protests going on right now because of George Floyd's death and I'm completely with them on that, #blackouttuesday, and that there's a Pandemic going on but does that mean I'm supposed to roll over and stop planning my wedding because it's not as important as what's happening? My life may not be important to the world but it's important to me and I don't want to have to do a tiny elopement or small service because It's just not what I want. After all the hardship I've been through in my life I'm finally standing up for myself and saying "I deserve better!" Because if I'm not selfish every once in a while I wouldn't have anything for myself.