We've been engaged for 10 months now. We've booked and paid for over half the venue, we've booked and put a deposit down on a caterer, we've bought a CRAPton of decorations, we had an engagement party, we're starting plans for a bridal shower, we're about to move out of state, I'm in a never ending battle with his mother and sister, and the tension is so thick I could swim in it. I've been saying for weeks that I would rather scrap all the plans and just get hitched, but we joke and say I'd hate myself in 10 years if I don't have photos. But today hit me so hard that I can't even handle it ... I can't handle planning this wedding anymore ... I don't want to plan around anybody else (i'm already a serious introvert and don't like dealing with other people when I don't have to) and having to cater to their feelings. I've had to make some rough decisions lately, and not all of them my FH agrees with, but he accepts them. So the tension builds ... I'm at my breaking point where I am adamantly against the wedding and would rather just go to city hall and get the paper signed. We can throw a party and get pictures later, right??
Is anybody else having this issue or is it just me..? Am I letting my anxiety get the best of me? I've been talking about the city hall wedding for a couple months now ... this is just too much … I don't have an MOH because I don't have someone close enough to me that I can depend on like that ... my bridesmaids are both still in school so they're always busy .. they step up when I need them, but as far as being present and doing the planning with me, they're not there much. And that's fine, but I don't have more support than my FH and my mom/stepmom. But even that's not feeling like enough anymore ... I don't know what to do ... my FH wants the wedding we're already planning ... help..?