Wedding Changes

My wedding is in October, I go back and forth between being very optimistic and just knowing things will be better by then and getting to have my dream wedding with all of our loved ones. Then I also get really stressed and worried about the situation and the unknown of what will happen. We have a small wedding planned already at less than 75 guests at most that we would be okay to shrink down to just our immediate family and bridal party which would be less than 20. Of course a wedding is all about marriage but I would also hate to not have my family and friends that are pretty much family witness it and hug and cry together, that’s what we all want! We want that love and emotion and being able to feel all of it with our closest loved ones! I feel awful for anyone that has had to cancel or postpone, I would get married on our date regardless even if it meant just myself and my husband and our officiant but it’s he at breaking to think about not being able to see the look on my moms face or my sister crying tears of joy seeing her big sister get married. Really it’s those little things I crave and really I’m just hopeful I’ll be able to get to have those little things on my day. Just had to vent that as I know others have it way worse and you start to feel bad for well, feeling bad! It’s okay to mourn about anything during this situation and we can’t be too hard on ourselves. Let’s just hope that we all get our dream weddings here soon one way or another.