Wedding Celebration after Court Elopement or Not?

So I have a very difficult situation. My husband and I have been married for three years now. We married through the courthouse in 2016. He deployed shortly after that and we postponed the big day until he returned, he got back and we got pregnant then another deployment happens, we then moved to another state. Between deployments, moves and a baby three years have gone by. I have always struggled with the idea that I didn’t get a wedding to celebrate with my family. I have been very hurt by that since I waited so long to marry and always thought I would have a wedding. Ow three years later we have had one venue cancellation because my family can’t travel to where we live due to cancer diagnoses for two close family members. I then decided to do the wedding in my home State to make things easier for my family to attend. We locked down a venue and last week I was told the venue will not possibly not be completed for my date because of renovation delays. I don’t have the energy to start all over again. I feel so defeated and emotionally tired from the back and forth all these years. I have a wedding dress and multiple failed attempts three years after the intended date. I feel like a fool now and part of me wants to let it all go. But I know that it will be something I will be forever resentful and regretful of. I don’t know how to process it all. I am just angry, hurt and emotionally exhausted. Thoughts and ideas are welcome.