Okay. Let me start off by disclaiming, THIS IS A RANT. I just wanted to purge my feelings. No one else but you guys I think will understand what I am feeling right now. But I just wanted to release this. We finally came to the agreement that it was time to reschedule the wedding. This saddens me so much since we have been engaged since 2018 and I had everything planned for the last year and a half. I had the perfect date set. Earlier this month I talked to my venue coordinator and he let me set a tentative back up date and tonight my FH and I decided that it was the best option right now to take that back up date. It's not at all what I wanted. This has caused me so much stress and pain. But....I am still getting married. I still have my health, my family is okay for now. And I have done my part in trying to ensure the safety of myself, my FH, and our friends and families. So even though this was one of the most painful decisions ever, I feel like it was a good and responsible one.