I never deleted the app and I know I wrote a last post stating that we were doing something small and intimate and post poning the big wedding.
For those who didn't see, my mother unexpectedly passed in January so I canceled my big wedding for time to grieve as I was and still am having a very hard time. We decided to do a civil court wedding in Santa Barbara instead and do a big wedding with our huge family and friends in a year or so when the time was right to where I can enjoy being around everyone instead of sulking and crying . I did not feel I could do such a big wedding when I was in my depression of losing my mom but end of the day wanted to still marry my best friend. Well due to COVID 19 our wedding was canceled the civil one and even the big one would of canceled either way so it’s crazy how things happen. Luckily! since my husband worked at the court house in Ventura County they informed him that it would be closing and advised him to get his marriage license that same day. so I got off work early and ran over!! We got it just in time before courts closed to public and our chaplain/officiant of the big wedding agreed to do it at a local church that was still open which we beat because it closed the next day! We were blessed to get married on our 5 year anniversary, the little details and stress no longer mattered and it made me realize the stress of big planning was no longer worth the stress as long as we got married!! I felt my mom there with us too and as hard as it was without her, I felt her. It also gives me time to get things together while grieving, save more money and lose more weight. End of the day I don’t care I’m happy we made it happen and happy he convinced me to leave work early to get the license. Marriage life is great feels the same since we been living together and raising a son my newly official step son. It feels more intimate and official, I can’t wait to grow our family and next year or so plan the big one again when my grieving is better and Covid settles. Hope you all are well during this time!! Just wanted to share and shed light that in dark times always prevails light and happiness!!
You and your husband look absolutely meant to be together! And girl, you could be a hair model. Seriously gorgeous. I’m so happy that all the little details came together for you at the last minute. Funny how God works that way. ❤️ Rest assured that your mother saw you get married and that she continues to be with you. I’m sorry you are hurting right now, but you will see her again. Peace and love to you.