We decided to cancel

So after 5 years of being married we decied that we would renew our vows bc our first wedding we eloped at city hall and did a staycation due to numerous of reasons. I was just thankful we were married. Finally we planned our BIG renewal for this year May 23rd and we decied to cancel. My point of me writing this post is bc we been in Contact with the venue and we've been working with this owner now for a 1 and a half now to plan this day. He has mention via text on March 13th If things become worsen I can get my money back. So i request for it yesterday and he stated his sorry to hear this and he is now refunding other parties back their money who were having parties or events this month..however he is going broke and if me and my husband Can we give him sometime to get back on his feet..bc his business is closed..How should i feel? I feel like i understand but then i don't! I guess bc now im anxious bc of the decison i made to CANCEL this whole thing...