My wedding it was supposed to be on april 4th, it was the perfect date 4.4.4 pm and if you sum the numbers in 2020... equals 4... I don't know, I'm crazy about numbers. In march 11th, 3 weeks before the wedding and with a year and 3 month of engagement, almost 7 years of relationship, we had to make the decision of postpone it. And if you want the cherry over the cake, I'm in El Salvador, and my FH is in Minnesota, the last time we saw each other was July 28th last year. He had to move for work, and for the cost of traveling during the Holidays in December we decided to wait to for the wedding and the honeymoon. I cryed like this only when my grandma past away 3 years ago. Not only I lost my wedding as I planned it, now I can't see my FH because airports here are still closed. Thank God for the wedding planeer, she helped me to make calls and to let know the vendors that it will be held later in the year.
For weeks the subject it was thin ice between my family, my fiance and I. I was so sad, disapointed, mad, furious, and then I felt like I couldn't say anything because it was "just a wedding", people was getting sick and dying for the pandemic, people were losing their jobs because a lot of bussines were closing. I put my self on a shell taking advantage of the quarentine and I just disapear of the world and everyone who knows me. In May, when we finally talk about what are we were going to do, I was inflexible, I was determined to have the wedding in 2020, but the venue is all booked to the end of the year, most of the hotels here are still not working and I felt like it was beggining from scratch and I just feel tired with the planning, I want to be married, I should be married by now.
After praying a lot, and talking with FH we finally decieded to move the date to March 20th 2021, and guess what... I finally feel peace, it's been hard but we now make jokes about if we waited this long we can do it a lil' bit more. Now we are waiting for the airports to open so He can book the next flight to El Salvador, and finally see each other, it's been like the worst and ultimate test for us, but I'm so glad we're still standing.
I haven't been on WeddingWire in all this months because it was painfull, but today that I enter to make changes and reschealdule tasks, I enter the forum and I cryed reading that so many brides have been on my shoes, I really feel all of you that had to change your plans, I understand your sorrow, your pain and your anger. I don't have an answer about why this happened this year, but I can tell you that if you want to be together, there's no pandemic that can separete you two. Maybe the wedding is in other date, is going to be small, the guests would not o could not travel, but the important is that you feel right, happy, that you feel comfortable with your decisions, and most of all that you still have your partner with you for better or for worse, we just got forward in the "worse" part.
By the way an advice to all, is something my FH asked for and I forgot during this time, until he remembered to me last night: don't take it so hard on your partner, it was their wedding too and they are doing the best they can. I'm really gratefull for Him and all his patience.
(Sorry for the long post)
