Terrible Reception

So, we spent ALL day decorating a barn (ended up looking absolutely beautiful). I feel like I spent so much time and money on absolutely everything. Food for 150 guests, decorations, chairs/tables, and days and days creating a music play list.

The ceremony went well although only a handful of people showed up. Turned out even less than that actually came to the reception. (Maybe 20).

When we got there to take photos everyone kept coming up to us to watch/talk so when we were announced into the building a group of people were surrounding us. No one from the bridal party was sitting at the bridal table so I ended up sitting by myself. Finally when we gathered the bridal party to the table we finally began.

The announcer interrupted the best man during his speech so he just stopped and was embarrassed.

My playlist had slow older music first i was hoping to get the older people to dance but then people started to leave. Some even told my husband "this is boring" and then had the audacity to ask if they can plug in their phone and "play music they like".

I went outside to say bye to more people that were leaving (maybe 2 hours in now) and when I walked inside.... the people that were left WERE PACKING EVERYTHING UP. Food being put up, tables being knocked down, and the dance floor that my husband spent ALL NIGHT making the night before was being torn apart. But I thought if everyone thought it was THAT boring, then its obviously for the best to just leave and go home and cry.

I was crushed. I still am. I feel like I didnt even get a chance to make it fun. I didnt even get a chance. I spent all this time and all this money for what was supposed to be the funnest night of my life only to end up feeling like the worst. We were all out of the place by the time it even got dark. Before any of the fast songs played. Before I even got to really dance and drink and laugh.

I wish I would have just had a BBQ in my back yard. Would have saved so much money and probably would have had a lot more fun.

Now anytime I see, think, or hear about weddings I just want to cry. I cannot believe it. And I dont know what I am to do since this was a once in a life time night for me. Please please help any advice would be greatly appreciated.