So I've posted about my weight loss a little bit before but I've lost 60+ pounds doing keto and went from 250 pounds to 190 pounds. I had my thyroid removed due to grave's disease at 17 and was also diagnosed with PCOS that same year. My weight gain came on fast.. and within 2 years I went from 135 pounds to 200 pounds and became extremely depressed and gained the additional FIFTY pounds the year following. I am so happy I have finally taken back control of my life but have days where I am still very sad that I weigh 190 and not 140. I am 5'8 but would at least like to be at 150-160 on my big day. realistically I can probably get to 180 ish because of the way that I eat and the fact that I workout every single day but my point is only that I have been.. bummed. until my dress appointment yesterday.
I don't dislike my dress but anyone who knows me knows I had a vision. I was 14 when I saw a dress with lace beaded sleeves and a beautiful lace back and knew that was my dream. buying my dress at 250 pounds became "what dress can I find that fits me and doesn't accentuate my stomach?" rather than "which of these dresses is my dream dress" was not a fun experience.. I tried on my dress yesterday and it looked great.. I'm not "thin" even now but i didn't look at myself and see my weight.. I felt beautiful and more importantly, I feel healthy. I have so much energy and enjoyed the whole experience a lot more because I used to get sweaty very quickly and became out of breath easily.
On a whim I decided to show the amazing seamstress pictures of the lace back and long lace sleeves that I would want beaded and asked her how much that would cost to do to a dress like mine. it is 1 month and 1 week before my wedding so I didn't think that I could do it but I was curious about how much it would have been.. I was disappointed that I had never asked because I didn't feel good enough about myself to before.
She got the price for me and it was not cheap but it was in m budget so I kicked myself for not asking months ago and she said "I CAN do this to your dress. We have everything we need to do this because another bride ordered similar material and ended up calling off the wedding. I can do this if you can place the order today. I called my fiance and made sure to end my explanation of what had happened with "I understand that this is last minute and I will be just as happy to walk down the aisle to you in my dress exactly the way that it is right now so PLEASE don't feel obligated to say yes." He responded with: "You have worked so hard and deserve your dream dress. Don't apologize or ask again baby. Do whatever you want." I love him so much and needed to share my excitement. THIS IS IT. This is the feeling brides have been talking about my entire engagement.. I didn't cry when I tried on my dress. I have been too embarrassed to say that and play along when people ask me but I didn't have that moment until yesterday. I am so excited.
SO SORRY for my long post. Have a great day everyone. 
this difference is also why my alterations were more than originally quoted lol
inspo pic i showed the seamstress (just as in idea my dress doesn't show that same level of cleavage)
back inspo I showed the seamstress
this was taken in the middle of my weightloss but is the only picture i have on my computer of the front as it
