I’ve come here because I have nowhere else to turn. The stress of planning a bedding that I can not afford has become too much and I’m having major cold feet.
Let me start at the beginning and tell you about me. Im a 28 year old single mom to a 10 year old daughter who has never met her father. (Emotional damage) I’d been in a very abusive relationship in every sense of the word. Then when my daughter started kindergarten and I got a new job, I met a genuinely nice guy. He is kind to us and we’ve been together since. I know I love him, and he loves me but I’ve never felt like he’s been in love with me. We have very different work ethic and goals. I don’t know what to do.
We decided we are going to get married and I handle all of our finances, so I suggested a courthouse marriage with a casual celebration with friends and family to billow. Very little expense. But he said was set in having a “real” wedding (this will be his second) and got really excited at first, finding a venue, DJ and photographer that he “had to have” now I find myself less than two months out from the set date and I haven’t been able to finish paying for the DJ and photographer that he wanted. Much less a dress for myself. That’s right I do not have a wedding dress, nor can I afford one. He doesn’t have a suit, my daughter doesn’t have a dress to wear.
All this stress is making me wonder is it worth it? I’m absolutely miserable and stressed to the max with no one to vent to.
I’m not sure what I’m looking for in posting this, or if anyone will ever read it, but typing all of this out has made me feel heard none the less.