Can I just rant for a second? Feel free to ignore this, I just want to express myself a little. We we supposed to get married this last May, but because of COVID-19, we rescheduled for August and I started moving on from the grief of the initial wedding date and started looking forward to August. Things were starting to look optimistic again. But now cases of the virus have started spiking again in my state because people seem to think that because we're reopened, things are normal and COVID isn't around anymore and are more comfortable ignoring social distancing, having parties and not wearing masks. So frustrating. So today my FH started asking me about coming up with a plan C. Rescheduling the reschedule. I don't think I can do it again. I invested so much time, money and energy to the initial date that to do it again would just put me over the edge. Why? Why is this happening to me? To us? Why are we the abnormal ones? We already had to cancel our honeymoon indefinitely. So I'm not getting an honeymoon this year, am I not getting a wedding this year either? I've been planning this wedding since 2018. So yeah, I'm sad. I'm not saying the world revolve around me and my wedding and that's all that matters, no. But I cant help but to look back on my friends' past weddings or look to future ones where the virus didn't exist or will no longer exist and think, why wasn't mine this easy.