I had started smoking when I was 17 and smoked minimally for 4 years (smoking just over a pack a week at the height of my smoking). I easily quit in February 2021 when I realized things were going really well with my FH who is a non-smoker. He did know I smoked but thought it was limited to weekend drinking. I realize I did something really stupid 3 weeks ago when I was feeling stress from the wedding and from work and asked a guy I work with for a cigarette. It felt perfect but I figured it was just what I needed at the moment. Unfortunately, I felt the desire the next morning and visited my "adviser" neighbor, who I know smokes and told her I was stressed and asked if I could bum a cigarette. She gave me the rest of her pack that tied me over for several days. However, I stopped for gas 4 days later and bought my own pack. It was initially easy to hide as my FH and I don't live together, and I was only having 1 - 2 a day - after I'd see him or when I knew I wouldn't see him for hours. He's been out of town since Saturday and I've recognized that I'm smoking more this week than I did before I quit. I bought the less-expensive, 3-pack after dropping him off at the airport. I am up to 4-5 a day. Part of the increase is not having him around (like before - I smoke more w/o intimacy) but I know I need to quit or fess up. I know he'd be understanding but also disappointed. Other than my co-worker and neighbor, no one else knows I've begun the habit again and I'd prefer to keep it that way. So, I'm reaching out to see if anyone has any sure-fire methods to quit. I really don't want to vape because I know the nicotine content in vapes will only feed the addiction. Thanks for thinking about this one.
Em
