I am, in no way, the type of person to just jump at something and make a split second decision. I am the epitome of the definition of planner. If anything, we have had many people tell my FH and I that we have "plenty of time." We got engaged in April 2017 and our wedding is October 2018. Believe me, having 18 months to plan instead of 12 has been a blessing.
ANYWAYS! Let's get to the point here....I had a vision for my dress. A particular style I wanted. I also wanted to go for a color (blush, or champagne). I tried on every dress style possible, so I didn't limit myself. I found that some styles I thought I would hate looked surprisingly good and made me feel great. I tried on dresses in white, ivory, blush and champagne. I found veery quickly that while really wanted a blush or champagne colored dress, it did not work with my complexion. White was too stark for my liking, ivory it is! I tried on who knows how many dresses at a handful of stores. I was at the store with a few of my BMs as they were trying on their dresses. I had no intention of trying anything on but I was encouraged to do so when my BMs noticed me checking out a particular dress on one of the mannequins. As crazy as it sounds, this dress spoke to me when I put it on. When I stepped out of the dressing room, the girls loved it. They said it "looked like me." Which I like! I want it to reflect me, I still want to look like myself, just a more glorified version. I did not make the decision that day. I loved it, but I wanted to be sure. I still had other shops I wanted to check out. Which I did. I returned to try that one particular dress on at least 10 different times. I sat on that dress for 6 MONTHS before deciding to but it. I was unsure when I didn't have the dress on. When I would go try it on again, I didn't want to take it off. Every other dress I tried on I would compare back to that one. Those seemed like signs that I had made my decision. I was excited when I "said yes to the dress" but I didn't break down in tears like so many say they do. I was so happy though that the dress works perfectly with my mother's veil. I have always wanted to wear her veil, it is a mantilla, and the lace trim goes well with the dress.
I now have the dress, first fitting won't be until July 2018...but why am I feeling like I settled? I looked and looked and looked....and looked some more. I shouldn't feel this way yet I can't figure out why. And even then, if I had continued to look, perhaps I would still feel this way in the end. Can anyone relate to this feeling?
