I am feeling pretty down on myself today. We got married last month and the wedding was wonderful. Now we are getting the photo preview back and my husband and family look lovely, but I look like a deflated toad in all the photos. I worked really hard and lost 30lbs before the wedding, but in all of the portraits I look way bigger than I feel like I look in the mirror. My posture is bad, I look super old for my age with heavy wrinkles all over my face, and the makeup looks really harsh as well. Plus in a lot of photos my face just looks distorted and weird. I have tanned skin, but the contrast is so high that I almost look pale white.
I tried editing a few because the photographer has this wonderful soft style in her personal gallery, but whoever is editing them (I don't think the photographer is) is using some filter that is really harsh and high contrast which just highlights how old I look. But because they are already edited, there is no way to bring back any of the softness of the originals.
I'm really sad because I love scrapbooking and I have been really excited to get the final photos to make our scrapbook and print portraits for our home. I didn't take many photos while we were having the wedding, I had a lot of fun just being present with our family and friends. So I have a few nice selfies while we were getting ready, but that's it, nothing nice to hang on the wall. I literally don't have a single nice photo of me with my husband, my dad or with my bridesmaids!
My husband has been really sweet and has contacted the photo company for us. They said that once they send the full gallery we can pick photos we like and they'll send us them in a softer style if we want. I am hoping that works out, and I guess if not maybe we can just get the raw files and edit them ourselves? but I'm still worried that there just wont be any good photos with me in them. I know the whole things sounds really vain but it was really important to me.
Has anyone else had this happen? How did you get over it? I keep reminding myself that our wedding was wonderful and that if this is the worst thing to happen that it is not a big deal. But I still feel really sad. Any advice?
