Hi ladies and gents-
I've noticed that a lot of y'all have been bridesmaids before. You have a ton of experience on how things should look and feel the day of whether you are still in that role, or you're the bride! In my case, I am the bride and this is my second time-we won't go into the first time.
I've never been a bridesmaid in any wedding and have hardly ever gone to weddings. I could probably count on one hand the number of them I've been to, including my FMIL's this weekend.
I'm not sure how to describe the feeling I have about this. It's like a weird empty feeling (lonely?) / 50% not knowing what I'm doing or what to expect / do I even deserve to be getting married and have the spotlight for 30 seconds / why do I feel like I have been surpassed in the social aspect of these things?
I was reflecting the other day and it feels like it went from "weird-I don't have a lot of experience in this" to "Is it me as a person?" I was definitely not the first choice for being invited to weddings and most all the weddings I have gone to were 'you are attached to x person so have a compulsory invite." It feels like a mix of fear of the unknown and sadness that I may just not deserve this because I haven't really been in anyone else's special day?
Has anyone felt that way? Is it just my high-functioning depression? AM I CRAZY? Positivity only please.