Hi ladies! Was hoping to maybe get some opinions on what to do. Sorry in advance for the long post. Pic of my fiancé and i for attention
My fiancé and I got engaged September 1 2019. We are supposed to get married September 25 2021. I have my dress and deposits on venue (catering and bar included), photographer, limo, hair and makeup and a dj. However, in May of this year, my dad passed away. We were really close and he was the life of the party. The thought of him not walking me down the aisle or being able to celebrate makes me sick. I havent really done much wedding planning these past 6 months cause I’ve been coping with losing my dad. I feel like I’m super behind now. I also hate planning for the wedding now. It used to be fun but now it’s all just extremely stressful and gives me anxiety. My fiancé and I also just bought a house a month ago. I keep looking at how much we’re going to spend for the wedding and thinking about how much we could do to our house with that money instead. I just cant believe how much money we are about to dish out for one day. My fiancé and I have been talking about what to do. We could just continue planning and have the wedding as originally planned. Maybe get a wedding planner and see if they can help me with it all to relieve anxiety but they all seem so expensive (like $5k). My other thought is just have a small ceremony and throw a party for friends and family in our backyard with it catered. I just worry that may be stressful for me as well. I’ve also thought of just saying screw it and getting eloped but i dont want to upset friends and family. I love my fiancé and honestly the only thing i care about now is being married to him. He says he supports me in whatever I decide. I just feel like I need to make a decision here somewhat soon. What do you guys think?
