My brother suddenly died a few days ago and i'm crushed. It wasn't from Covid 19, he'd been in ill health for years, but it wasn't expected. He'd previously had at least 7 heart attacks and at least 6 strokes. I say at least because he'd have mini ones of both and after awhile the number gets away from you.
I can't explain the grief. If you've lost a sibling you have some understanding. It's hard because he and I had lost our parents three years apart when we were teenagers back in the 80's so it had been Mike and I against the world since. We were each other's biggest cheerleaders but we also would tell each other the truth without sugar coating it.
Was he perfect? No, but he was a good guy. He loved his wife, his two adult kids and his one year old grandson. i'm lost. I'm not sure how I would have handled my wedding if it had happened now. I'm really grateful he was able to be there. He was frail, but he was there. He was only 3 years older than me, but people thought he was my dad because of his white hair and beard. I will go on, I always have when I lose people. This one is just hard. i'm broken
My brother and I at my wedding last October 19th