Mixed Emotions! We finally tied the knot!

We finally tied the knot last September 26, 2019 at the Marriage Bureau Manhattan, New York.

It does feel strange in a best way. Because, after 5 1/2 years and 3 1/2 years living together. I feel like we're back to square 1. I'm still in cloud 9. Don't believe we're already married. ACtually, the original plan is to have a church wedding next year 19th of July. Everythings planned and booked already. But, we just decided last minute to have a civil wedding first. So, we did it in 2 weeks. Get our marriage license then got married in 2 weeks. I didn't get nervous nor excited that much like the others. But, I'm certainly happy and I know this is what I want. Been dreaming of it for 5 years. It just it didn't sync in while in process even until now. I don't feel like this is all real!

Maybe I got so excited all this years and by the time it happened, the excitement is gone or maybe I need more time to feel it or maybe after the church wedding next year with every member of the family is there. The preparation, bigger wedding dress, more than 100 people, the marching, the vows. Etc.

I thought nothing will change, but It really feels strange after we tied the knot.

Me & my husband have 27 years gap. He has a 11 years old son when I met him back in Philippines. (Now he's here after he petitioned him).

My family wasn't approve of him (Especially my Mom) from Day 1 until 3 1/2 years later.

I left home actually to move in with him. When I made the decission the give him a chance to love me back then. I really don't know what I was doing. ( I just broke got heartbroken when I met him) The guy left me for another girl. I was depressed. I lost my work because the b=company closed down. My Grandfather and step father died in the same year. I was really in a bad shape when I met him. I was looking for comfort. Someone who will listen to me.

I met him accidentally in the park. Shared the same passion. (Photography)

After a few months its just happened. We begin to like each other and give it a go.

I feel strange now maybe because after all this years, after all the challenges, hardships, sacrifices. It's all worth it. It does make sense now. Looking back, I made the right decission.

Sometimes, you just really need to follow your heart even thought you're having doubts. Who knows. It really doesn't matter if you get hurt or he is not the one for you. Don't give up easily when challenge is facing you. Face it. Conquer it. Fight for what you believe in.

While I was fighting for our love back then. I really have serious doubts if I'm really making the right decission. I just followed my heart that no matter what happens. No matter how other people (My family) thinks of us. I'm really happy with him. No matter what challenges faces us. I'm happy facing it with him.

Sometimes, if you really want to be happy. You can't ignore the fact you might hurt somebody in your decission. At the end of the day. It's you and your partner. Not with other people.

What I learned in our relationship? Take risks, face the challenges, believe, trust, and FAITH.

It's okay to have doubts, thats normal. You really just need to fight for what you really believe in and fight for the one you love UNCONDITIONALLY!

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