Hi everyone!
So this post may sound pathetic but bare with me lol
I don't have many girlfriends in my life. I have a decent amount of friends (mostly guys) but none of them are like someone I'd I share my secrets with.
Except 1. She's my best friend and we've been together through ups and downs. Obviously when I got engaged back in March of this year, I immediately asked her to be my MoH and she accepted.
As COVID got worse, in June we had a conversation where she basically said if there isn't a vaccine, then she won't be coming to the wedding which is planned for May 8th, 2021.
First of all - I totally get it. I understand completely and I told her as much. Her safety and comfort is #1 to me.
But now I'm in this tricky situation. Technically she's still my maid of honor because we have no idea what COVID is going to look like in May of 2021. If we do get a vaccine (or it slows significantly), she'll come and everything will work out fine.
But should I give her a cut-off date as to when to tell me she can't do it so that I can find someone else? Who else would I even have be my MoH? I don't really have any other people that are super close to me (especially no one that can write a speech about us..) Has anyone else had a MoH that they weren't really close to?
The second problem is what if I ask someone else and then end up moving the wedding back 6 months anyway because COVID surges or something? It's not like I could switch back to my best friend if she decides to come.
I've just felt really depressed over the whole thing since I can't make a decision because she's like the one person I actually want to be there.
Also, I don't expect the MoH to do anything for me other than show up and write a toast. With COVID and the fact that I live far away from most friends, I don't think I'll have a bachelorette party or anything like that.
I'd love to hear your thoughts! Or if anyone wants to volunteer to be my MoH, I'll take it 
Thanks!!
