Hi, friends. Just to backup a little, my fiance and I had our wedding planned for August 2020 and after everything that has happened with COVID and all the stress (I'm sure a lot of you can relate to) we made the heart wrenching decision to postpone. With mixed reviews from our guests, we were glad we could press the restart button with a new date for May 2021.
Now, after all that, I'm feeling a bit uneasy and full of anxiety again. I'm nervous that May won't work for the same reasons and on top of that---my mom has cancer. She was doing really well and felt really good before we postponed and now with new treatment, I'm concerned. She is doing well now, but I can't help but feel nervous about May. What if things start to get worse? What if I postponed only to make it so that my mom isn't there? I'm tearing up as I write this--I'd rather have my mom there than have everything I ever wanted for my wedding.
I've spoken to my mom about this very sensitively and she is very optimistic. I've spoken to my fiance and he thinks that we just need to keep tabs on her and redirect if we need to get married in his parents backyard, which isn't the worst idea. Am I overreacting because I'm such an organized person and I just want to know what to do? Should I get married in a intimate ceremony (which will feel sad) in the backyard because my mom feels good now and why wait till she feels worse, if she does? It feels like it's all on me and I don't know how to make the right decision with everything going on. I know no one can truly help me make a decision but some advice would be amazing of you.
