Just a quick vent

I have been trying to hold everything together during this whole covid 19 thing, but I’m losing it. I am 24 days until my wedding. I don’t have a bridal party only a maid of honor which is my future sister in law who is finishing up her fourth year at the art school in Savannah so she couldn’t be here to help do anything. She is literally coming in 2 days before the wedding. Since this virus has hit I have been trying to do everything on my own my FH mom offered to help with appetizers because we are doing our own to save money besides the fruit and veggie trays. My FH refuses to let her help so when I’m talking to him tonight I told him I realize she is stressed out, but at the same time I’m having to cook for my own wedding and I can’t ask her to do one thing. I’m not going to lie it hit a nerve because I have went from being able to show up at venue and have everything done to now having to cancel my venue (thanks covid) and do everything myself. I think I’m just getting overwhelmed I’m torn over our guest list there is still questions on it. Trying to figure out if we have ordered enough food and then all the stuff I’m going to have to try and do the day before and squeeze in a rehearsal and then staying up all night fixing cupcakes pinwheels and pig in a blanket. I have tried so hard to stay positive, but it seems like the closer it gets my positive attitude is fading faster and faster. 😓😭😩