June Bride

I just had a complete breakdown because of my hair. I had to postpone my reception until August 2nd but we are keeping the ceremony on June 19th but smaller with just our parents in my moms church (venue change). So because all of the events are happening on two different days i had to move my hair and MUA to the August date. I was able to afford my MUA for June as well but i decided to try to do my own hair since i’ve always been pretty good at it. However, As I tried to do a bridal hairstyle I disappointed myself resulting in hating not only the hairstyle i did but hate my hair color and everything else about my hair. I got soo upset i took everything out, put my hair in a bun, and laid down in bed.
I’m honestly soo tired of all of this and heartbroken. I spent a WHOLE year planning my wedding just to not have a SINGLE thing remain the same as my original plan. I vented my frustrations to my FH only for him to be dry and upset with me for being upset about that stuff saying the most important thing is staying the same which is the fact we’re getting married and HE’S ABSOLUTELY CORRECT but i’m still upset because frankly this is something I hoped, dreamt, and planned for...whereas he let me make the decisions and he went with the flow. Obviously he cant be upset because he couldn’t care less if we got married behind a dumpster. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity and I feel like i got robbed of mine.
No VOW RENEWAL will make up for this in my opinion so i feel heartbroken & blame my own crappy luck for this. I really just want to give up and i think “why bother even having a wedding at this point?” I’m tempted to cancel everything and just get married in court and call it a freaking day.